DAMN YOU FOR BEING LOVABLE.

재범에게 빠지고 또 빠지고...arghhh. the whole world loves you.

needed to post this, it really made me smile. credits to jenny @2OD for the translations=]















the last one killed me. seriously LUCKY!! the girl who will win his heart♥. jay your korean fail is AWESOME=D

NOTHING ON YOU/RESPECT THE ART.

.:[mood]:. okay.
.:[musiq]:. 2AM - 웃어 줄수가 없어서 미안하다

haven't bothered updating this in a while. anyway, unless you were literally living under a ROCK for the past 2 weeks, you would have seen jay's cover of bruno mars' 'nothing on you':




i was out visiting my brother when he uploaded this onto youtube, so when i came home, i was greeted with numerous msgs of "WHERE IS BECKII?! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?! JAY IS SINGING TO US ON YOUTUBE!!!" ...seriously made my day, my week, whatever!! literally in the few hours after he uploaded, jay got 1 million views. and like....30k suscribers, thousands of comments...

im so happy for him that he was able to share it again. theres so many conspiracies surrounding whether it really is him, or jype manipulating him or whatever, but im really so sick of thinking abt it, i dont care.

as also known - jay, tony and chacha went up to vancouver on the 21st to battle at Just Battle, battle of T.N.G. clips as follows [all credits to defJayyy's youtube]:

AOM vs. absolute crew


AOM vs. unleashed [byron's crew]

funny that my brother is also called byron. hahahah....


AOM vs. filthee feet



anyway, time to rant now. after watching the battles, i was APPALLED by the behaviour of the fangirls, who clearly were there only for jay [+ secondhand attention to chacha + tony]...when jay came on, the screams were DEAFENING, louder than any seattle battle iv watched. i hardly see how he could have concentrated with all those screams, i couldnt even hear the music. some of the other bboys also covered their ears, as i could see...gracious jay♥ and then as soon as it was the other crews' turn, and they did something really cool....NOTHING. not a squeak out of the fans.

now...thats just rude. bboy battles are not a concert, and its only respectful to appreciate the art if you're going to be there, not JUST for jay. not to mention he clearly wasnt even left alone....all the accounts suggest that he was crowded by fans all the time, and look. taking photos of the back of his head, touching him + giggling and running away, stealing his beanie so he has to ask for it back is both EMBARRASSING and ridiculous.

...just...rude. plain rude.



as for all the jay + 2PM related spam on AOM's page...well. perhaps i shouldnt start ranting on that. but in short - its AOM's page, NOT jays. as much as i love jay....aom is not jay only. and fans should not say they are 'AOM fans' when the majority are there for jay only. its ludicrous. and the other boys deserve recognition too -__-

FK. why does it make me so happy to just see you smile? sigh. il miss you, leadja. no one can ever replace you.

breakin' 4 haiti

jay as the mystery bboy! i will edit once i find steproc's cuts, but here is jay breakin it down=]:



he lost, i think its because he slipped up, missed a freeze at the end, and the other guy was neater...even though he didnt do as many bboy moves. sigh...jay looked really tired throughout the whole thing, he looked thinner....possibly due to stress from the recent bad news?=/


EDIT: steproc's cuts:


steproc was amazing, i was really impressed with his freestyle! all those flips!!! DAMN SON!





seeing this makes me miss him more.....its hard to swallow that he really is, just a normal kid now....i hope his heart heals soon, and he'll be better than EVER.


stay cool, jay♥♥ il always miss you...

GOODBYE 2PM.

.:[mood]:. pissed off, angry.
.:[musiq]:. one way - u drag


there will be no more posts on any of 5PM after this. khun, i will exempt for now. but after all that has been said and done, i am incredibly angry and disappointed in JYPE and their little minions, and they no longer deserve my respect nor support.

jay is permanently gone, and 2PM as it WAS, does not exist anymore.

sure, everyone has the right to believe what they want. believe what they want about what is true, and what is a concocted lie. but i am really, sick and tired of waiting and trying to believe in nothing. so FUCK you JYPE, FUCK you 5PM + khun[♥], i am DONE with you.

pictures don't lie, and for so many khottest to be leaving daum, to be angry...do you think they are still all fabricated lies? they are allowed to be human, all of them, jay is human too. but for a mistake that is so bad they couldn't protect him? when they are no angels themselves? DISGUSTING. where are your hearts? where are the boys i fell for oh so long ago? ....was that all a lie too?

ok, so i dont care all that much about their dirty lives. they arent perfect, i tend to have very cynical views on boys - so the fact they have sex with many girls, drink, smoke, not a surprise nor do i really care. i am angry because of the blatant disrespect they had for jay, and are now abusing khun.....who the hell are you to do that?

i feel fucking BETRAYED. there is a small possiblity that yes, this is a lie and the boys were not telling the truth at the conference. but im sick of trying to care. i nearly failed uni last year, failed a component of my exams THREE TIMES because i was so emotionally wrecked from all of this. i had MANY, MANY panic attacks within my exam period/1.59pm album release in november, i was bawling my eyes out for at least 5-6 hours EVERY DAY.

i spent a LOT of money donating towards the boys for various projects, i wrote many letters, i wrote many post its, i did nearly every single twitter trend even during exams, i have been partaking in various projects, drawing for EXTA5Y, trying to spread the word.....

a translator i know said this:
"The anti-boycotters that attended the conference have turned anti-6pm. That's how bad it was. And that's what the international community doesn't realize.

THE WHOLE Korean fanclub has turned their backs on 6PM. It's ONLY the international community that is fighting and arguing over whether to support 6PM or not. I would believe that Koreans have a better understanding of tone and attitude than we do.

There's only so much that me and the other ktrans can feed down the international community's throat before they start to wake up and realize that kHottests are for real and this is happening and 6PM is not receiving any support.

People keep saying that they are waiting for the actual conference to be subbed, that they want to judge tone and attitude for their own - it's impossible unless you're a part of that culture. They will never be able to completely understand what's considered respectful and disrespectful in Korea.

So bottom line... Even anti-boycotters and pro-6pm that went to the conference... They came out anti-6pm. That's how strong the effect of the conference was. PLEASE, the international community needs to wake up and act fast."

and now my time, i realise was never worth it. not for 5 of them, at least. i have the fucking right to be angry. for all my efforts, for all the other hottest efforts around the world, that they so blatantly say that fans did nothinig, that noone cared for jay - they had no respect for us then, and they have no respect for us now. so FUCK it, im out of this fandom.


so yes. there is a small 10% at the back of my mind that makes me doubt, makes me think...perhaps jay's image was all a huge, well fabricated LIE and he's not as beautiful as i thought. and that what the boys said was a lie. but until im proven otherwise, JAY has my faith and support.


my prayer for him now is to become GREAT. and for perhaps another company like YG ent. to realise his amazing potential and snap him up=] khun....stay strong and don't change. i dislike you for being weak and not speaking out, but you still have my love for not being an asshole.

im over this. if you don't like what i said, i don't care. iv had enough.